Rest

I've been living in a very surreal state of mind for the last while ..perhaps it's that i'm sick, and each of the 3 times i've seen the doctor, i get sicker. perhaps its the medication.. and it's been very uncomfortable - I don't even know that i'm getting the sleep I need at night.

But as i was transferring Jose's album In The Throne Room to my mp3 player (yes, m a non-iphone/ipod user), i stumbled across the song "Healer" by Hillsongs that ministered to my soul now. Such simple, but powerful lyrics.

Healer by Hillsongs

Verse:

You hold my every moment

You calm my raging seas

You walk with me through fire

And heal all my disease

Pre-Chorus:

I trust in You

I trust in You

Chorus:

I believe You're my Healer

I believe You are all I need

I believe You're my Portion

I believe You're more than enough for me

Jesus You're all I need

Bridge:

Nothing is impossible for You

Nothing is impossible for You

Nothing is impossible for You

You hold my world in Your hands

Lord, i feel so tired. inside and out. sometimes i feel like i'm constantly running, without actually running. i can't catch my breath sometimes and i don't even know how to stop. I don't even know what i'm running for or from. a restless heart that wants to find rest but doesn't know how. i think a part of it is that even when i'm resting, i know i have to be on the go again, and that itself takes the rest away. even in my sleep, i dream. 

Lord, cover me with your wings, i want to dwell in the shadow of your presence. I want to dwell there, and rest completely in You, be quieted by your love. Carry me in your arms, I don't have the strength anymore. No more whys, buts, lets, shoulds, musts. This is the time for rest. Jesus, teach me to rest.. restore my soul, lead me beside the quiet waters. 

I want to be fully Yours, to live, breathe completely in You. My Jesus, my beautiful friend and Lord, praise You.