Post CNY Stress

Finished hectic week!

didn't really think i would feel so stressed upon coming back from SG after Chinese New Year.. but it was! Came back on Tue afternoon, had Theology exam on Wed which i hadn't studied for. Thank GOD, (God is soo cool again), the afternoon classes were cancelled so i could study abit ! Tue evening it was a bday celerbation for my roomie, and then when we came back , it was another surprise party for her at the dorm! haha.. i really had minimal time to study for my exam! Was also helping to coordinate the surprise in between also.. and when i landed, i found out about the other assignments i had to do while i was away.. was really STReSSED!

Of course i enjoyed the parties and she really did too! THANK GOD that she was so many other wonderful friends that wanted to bless her so!! Anyway, iam really glad to have known her as my roomie, just feel abit bad that i couldn't really have been there throughout all her parties (she had another one on the next day evening), but i was really too tired.. and abit stressed out. That's as much High I-ness i can take over 2 days and over CNY!! really God's grace that i managed to finish what i finished.. THANK GOD

Somehow.. been having an increasing desire to go back home.. but i guess also afraid. Going back this CNY, i felt.. abit distant from the rest of the people in Singapore. I feel like i need to come back and rebuild relationships... kinda abit scary also.. but in a way also good, coz perhaps, i can start again? Really don't know. THings are coming to a gradual winding down here in Manila somehow.. we've had a wonderful time, a great time.. but i think all ofus are also getting conscios of the work ahead of us to do! And i guess all partially excited, but also partially apprehensive! Even though i know we will surely miss my classmates in Manila, it also comforting for me to know that we are all still in one spiritual family and now whichever country i go to, i will have another friend. I am so thankful for the relationships i have here.

it's a funny feeling though.. just this whole multiple relationship thing all over the world.. sometimes i wished that we would somehow be altogether and build from there.. but that is so not biblical also..haha. God's plan is for us to disperse and scatter throughout the world that we may bring His Good News to as many places as possible not to congregate in one place so that in the process, we can build a bigger family. I guess it's also having a conscious awareness of this because sometimes its just so easy to keep something good for urself. I feel like i've left pieces of me all over the world in that process. :p

Well,.. i still don't know what to expect when i graduate, but i;m sure i;ll get past it as i've always had, with God by my side. He has given me so much!! especially in times when i should logically have the least! I just realised that i have never gotten as much "property" as i have now, when i have the least income! :P A nice laptop, digital Camera, new HP, MP3 player and travelling in a span of 7 months! I don't know how it all happened honestly! Truly God moves in mysterious ways... HIS understanding goes beyond ours!